I dont know what made me think about this subject today, but I did. I guess because I cant live without anti-depressants and sleeping aids. Why, well I'm bipolar, borderline and I need tons of sleep. Why? If I dont get sleep, I get manic. When I get manic, I do stupid things and get very impulsive and even though being manic is a wonderful feeling, I dont like it. I like to be level and thankfully I have been level even due to the circumstances I have dealt with the past few months. I dont deal with stress at all. Well the way I deal with it is smoke and eat. I quit smoking and Im on a diet so my other outlet is anger. I am easily angered lately, no excuse. I just am so sick of people bitching about the stupidest things lol.
Anyway, I know a lot of people that are hurting, losing sleep, sad, cant sleep, exhausted... my suggestion is to get on a small dose of an anti-depressant or sleep aid. Trust me, it works. The natural way, doesnt work. And I get so sick and tired of people saying right to my face that there will be no way they will take medication for their ailments when I am one of them... as if its a crutch or a simple way out. How dare you! So what does that make me? I need it. Maybe you do too! And for those that do need it and dont even try to do something about it just suffer and continue to put themselves through hell trying to function daily when hey, maybe it will work... I know a very good friend that thought the same thing. They decided to cave and was put on a small dose of an anti-depressant and it did wonders. And they were only on it for a few months. Whats wrong with that? Absolutely nothing. I refuse to feel like I am not strong enough because I have to be on meds for the rest of my life... Ive been through a lot in my lifetime and let me tell you, it has made me stronger and I have learned so much the past 10 years... about my disease. Being depressed does not make you weak, admitting you have it makes you a hero.
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